I made a run for it this week. I decided to spend time with my family more. So now Iām home being a work at home mom.
For me, it honestly feels good because I finally get to see the kids off to school in the morning and when they get home from school. I get to help them with homework and give them that mommy talk when they are acting up in school.
Starting this school year, my kids can finally be apart of extracurricular activities without me saying no because Iām still at work. I get to really be involved.
I was a workaholic for a long time , now Iām trying to bring back the family time. The kids look forward to me being home so here I am .
Donāt get me wrong, I still have to work but this time Iām going to making my own avenue . So hereās to me running šāāļø and not looking back.
I want my children to be able to be involved in whatever they want to while they are kids because when they become adults things changes.
Being that we have to move this week what would be some ideas of things to do since the kids are out?
What would you do if you had a kid free week ? You still have to work but you still have kid free week.
Well our first day without the kids I, I choose to do something that he like. He loves watching the sunset, me on the other hand Iām just there wrapped up in a blanket.
The clouds were hiding the sun but for him it was still relaxing. Where weāre moving we have to drive an hour or two just to go to the beach so he wanted his last go round.
Plastic plates it is, Iāve already packaged my fine plates away but it wonāt change the taste of the food.š
What a first night alone together would be without watching a movie. Well tonight we are laying away in the bed watching āBird Box 2ā. When it comes down to watching movies šæ with me, he prefers we stay home because for some reason I always fall asleep š“ at the theater. When Iām at home, Iām wide awake and he feels like I really appreciate the time.
In the stillness of the night, Iām enjoying our first day . What tomorrow has in store for us , I will let you know. Until then, life is going on and on.
So we are moving. I feel I move so much that I barely settle into the house. If I had me a therapist, they would probably ask me, what is it about moving that you do it so easy.
Well I am my own therapist and I think about things all the time. Before I make any huge decisions, I have to check my own motives. At this stage of life for me, Iām done trying to prove myself of capable to perform certain abilities.
Now, Iām just a living proof of I am capable. I am Fearless and Confident. So this move is a This is it move. We have a plan , a plan to thrive and overcome. We are acknowledging that things may happen along the way but with Christ, consistency and discipline we will overcome any adversity.
Well this it , Iām going to plant some seeds and watch things grow. This it, Iām actually going to get my kids involved with some after school activities. This it, Iām actually have 5 Christmas and 5 thanksgiving in one home.
As I mature, Iāve learned and accepted the mistakes Iāve made growing up. Sometimes I do wish I wouldāve made better choices but Iām ok with the fact Iām still able to find ways out of the decisions Iāve made that created life long consequences.
Now as I think about the future , I really think of right now. How many people youāve known were so excited about the future but didnāt make it to see the next day.
I donāt think Iām excited about the future. Donāt get me wrong, Iām equipping myself and my family for the future . Iām not putting nothing off and saying that i have to wait down the line . Iām living for today, and enjoying whatās in front of me. Now everybody living for today looks different.
My living for today means to not putting off what I can do now, and try to wait later. Iām teaching my kids, whatever you want to do, you can do it now. If you can read, you can do anything. If you are willing to be consistent, you can create anything.
The future isnāt promise, nor is it guaranteed. Only thing that is guaranteed is when you close your eyes and wake up the next day, that lets you know you got chance to make things great.
So If I had to be happy about the future, the reason would be because I instill to my family to live fearless. To live in the now because there isnāt anything that we canāt do. All you have to do is Read, Believe and be Consistent.
Making decision is a lot. For the most part when changes have to come about knowing which way to go can seem like a blur. As a child, teenager and or adolescent I felt like I always made the wrong decision. When I had the opportunity to choose better I still chooses wrong.
Now as an adult I believe I overthink everything. Sometimes I can be indecisive and or prolonging myself in making a decision. In myself, I want to get it right or just win all the time so that I can redeem myself.
What I have come to realize and starting to accept on a daily basis that itās Ok.
What if the decision that I make wasnāt all that great. It doesnāt make me a lesser of a human, it actually gives me a snapshot of where I need more work at so I can be better.
I lack sometimes because I try to manage everything. When Iām tired I like to take the easy way out because I donāt wonāt to put that extra step forward. I go to work, I come home and then I want to sit. In my head , I have things that I want to do for the house, the kids but I tend to get overwhelmed and only get partial of things done
Well today, it stops now. I want to be intentional and Iām going to be intentional. To say āpushā is one thing but to actually push myself through how Iām feeling is whole war. It at times be a war in my body and in my mind but I know itās a war I can win.
I am going to be intentional and consistent, so that I can create a lasting and fulfilling relationships for my family. Iām not the only one thatās feeling this way, Iām just going to be the one to say it.
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